Winter - Water as a Stone
Equilibrium Sao Paulo, Brazil 2023
Equilibrium Sao Paulo, Brazil 2023
Spring comes after Winter, even Death.
The unbearable process of grief.
After the initial shock of a death, with its acute pain and physical outpouring; you are often left with the unbearable process of grief, a state or limbo where opposing forces balance, between your loss, distress, relief and guilt.
The body shuts down, petrified, frozen as ice, cold unfeeling and desolate while simultaneously burning and tearing itself apart as sorrow tightens and strangles the throat.
I lost my parents and siblings after each heroically wrestled with their cancer.
Like the perpetually flames that licked but never burnt the autumn leaves or melted the blackened ice, it took time and alchemy to release me from the equilibrium of abandonment and the hope for spring.
It took the interaction of de-icer to quench the fire while melting the ice to erode the private intensity of the grief.
The unbearable process of grief.
After the initial shock of a death, with its acute pain and physical outpouring; you are often left with the unbearable process of grief, a state or limbo where opposing forces balance, between your loss, distress, relief and guilt.
The body shuts down, petrified, frozen as ice, cold unfeeling and desolate while simultaneously burning and tearing itself apart as sorrow tightens and strangles the throat.
I lost my parents and siblings after each heroically wrestled with their cancer.
Like the perpetually flames that licked but never burnt the autumn leaves or melted the blackened ice, it took time and alchemy to release me from the equilibrium of abandonment and the hope for spring.
It took the interaction of de-icer to quench the fire while melting the ice to erode the private intensity of the grief.